I am not affiliated with any political party at present. I feel like they're all leading us down the primrose path to destruction. I have not been politically active for 30 years aside from regularly turning out to vote in the general elections. I had been very active at one time resulting in a bad case of disillusionment. I was disappointed in the system and also very disappointed in myself, who had become quite masterful at manipulating the system. Discovering I was too foolish to have that much power I decided to bow out.
This week we heard a message from the First Presidency, read from the pulpit, encouraging us to be involved in the political process and to attend the Caucus of our choice. As there is no independent caucus, I considered myself excused. Then yesterday morning, I read the next article on my monthly journey through the Ensign magazine. As is often the case, the article seemed pointed right at me. It was called, of course, Follow The Prophet.
Normally, I go Home Teaching every Thursday night. And had intended to do so this week. Then I realized that doing so might hinder those I visit from attending the Caucus. We had also been counseled by the First Presidency to cancel all meetings that might interfere with Caucus participation. The dye was cast, I needed to follow the Prophet and leave my families free to attend, and I decided I'd better go as well. Besides, I had often rationalized that I had not left the Republican Party, it had left me. I still feel that way, but I realized that perhaps I was partially to blame for stepping aside and letting it go, to hell, without a fight. So off to the meeting I went.
Early on in the meeting, which, by the way, was much better attended that they were in the old days, I learned that, due to my lack of affiliation, I could not vote or become a delegate. I was okay with that. I enjoyed the meeting. The Precinct Chairman is a friend, very witty, and everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves.
The chairman called for the nomination of delegates and within moments the County Delegates, were nominated, voted upon and selected. I wondered how anyone knew who to vote for. They are all good folks. Most of them are active in my Ward or my old Ward. I know them to be good people. Is that how we choose our delegates? My neighbor across the street is someone I admire, practically above all others, I could vote for her for that reason, but I happen to know she voted for Obama and that would not sit well with me, whether she's a good person, or not.
I decided to ask a question and was granted the privilege, despite my outsider status.
"I'd like to hear from the candidates, especially for the State Delegate, BEFORE, the vote."
"We don't do that at this level," the Chairman replied.
"Why not?"
"At this level we just share the opportunity around. My Dad always said there are two things that shouldn't be discussed among friends, religion and politics."
Are you kidding me? You don't want to talk politics at a political caucus? I was incredulous. I was about to protest when he pointed out that I was not allowed to speak in addition to being not allowed to vote.
Fortunately, I'd stirred up another rabble rouser or two who carried it from there. One of them pointed out that he was interested in ousting Senator Hatch and wanted to know that the delegate he chose was like minded on the matter. Makes sense to me. I'd like to think the representatives I select will represent me, otherwise we might as well have a drawing rather than an election. Ultimately, a compromise was reached and each candidate was given one minute to campaign for his or her election. Hardly enough time to introduce themselves. Somewhere, someone had written the rule that the meeting and its business must be concluded in one hour.
In the end, they chose a State Delegate who has yet to make up her mind about the Hatch issue and whose biggest delight the last time she served was a pile of free campaign T-Shirts to give her grandkids for pajamas.
Something tells me that this flimsy excuse for grass roots representation was not what President Monson had in mind when he encouraged me to go to my Caucus Meeting. While I have made up my mind about the Hatch issue, the jury is still out about whether or not I should re-affiliate with the Republican Party. I don't think my blood pressure could take many more such carryings on.
Friday, March 16, 2012
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Leap Year Apology
I guess its okay that we have Leap Year. I don't mind. It's just funny that it seemed such a big deal when I was a kid. It seemed so tragic that we couldn't get the calendar right without such a clumsy adjustment. It seemed so hard to bear that my birthday and Christmas had to be delayed for an entire day! I could hardly bare thinking about the poor souls who were born on that misfit day. Why couldn't the Solstices and Equinoxes advance through the year like by birthday advances through the week?
Every four years the February and March calendars no longer match. I like matches. I always felt that God would, one day, reveal a calendar without such flaws. Perhaps he will; but by then the rotations, if there are any, will likely be more precise and the earth less telestial. Don't you think?
Now, I think there is a lesson even in this small fly in the ointment. Sometimes we have to make adjustments. That's all there is to it. Almost.
It seems like my life is just one big adjustment right now. Perhaps though, it wouldn't be so if I had made more regular and measured adjustments all along.
Instead, I've lived more like a tectonic plate; building up pressure as I tried to maintain the status quo; only to experience enormous upheaval when things finally broke. And, of course, as always it is nobody's fault but my own. That might be fine if it didn't rattle and shake the inhabitants of the surrounding countryside. Sorry.
Every four years the February and March calendars no longer match. I like matches. I always felt that God would, one day, reveal a calendar without such flaws. Perhaps he will; but by then the rotations, if there are any, will likely be more precise and the earth less telestial. Don't you think?
Now, I think there is a lesson even in this small fly in the ointment. Sometimes we have to make adjustments. That's all there is to it. Almost.
It seems like my life is just one big adjustment right now. Perhaps though, it wouldn't be so if I had made more regular and measured adjustments all along.
Instead, I've lived more like a tectonic plate; building up pressure as I tried to maintain the status quo; only to experience enormous upheaval when things finally broke. And, of course, as always it is nobody's fault but my own. That might be fine if it didn't rattle and shake the inhabitants of the surrounding countryside. Sorry.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Mormon Baptism for the Dead Not As Weird As They Think
When we were newly wed and living in Southern California we had a couple of Catholic friends who lived next door. Wonderful, close friends they were. When our first baby arrived and they discovered that Mormons don't get baptized until the "age of accountability" which we consider to be eight years old; they were alarmed, to say the least. Their church taught that unbaptised people go to Hell. A reasonable assumption considering Jesus' statement:
We explained this to Don and Sue, but naturally, they had serious doubts. When the baby was about three weeks old. Our good neighbors offered to baby sit so we could have a quiet night out together. Loving and trusting these two sweet friends we eagerly accepted the offer. We had a great time!
Upon our return we sensed a bit of tension in the room? The baby was asleep and fine. Finally Don couldn't stand the strain and they confessed that they had taken our daughter down to the Catholic Priest and had her baptized. They explained that they loved her so much and couldn't bear the risk we were taking.
They made it very apparent how horrifying the doctrine of the necessity of Baptism actually was among most Christians. A mandate that must not be ignored. They told us horror stories of folks who had, for various reasons, delayed the Christening of their child, only to lose her to Hell for their folly. We began to realize that such is true of millions of people, who never even had the opportunity to hear of Christ, let alone, make the choice to receive the blessing of baptism in their lives. Are those huge numbers of people condemned, without hope, through no fault of their own? We felt we knew better. We knew that God had provided a way through which those whose lives were not touched by the message of Salvation might also be afforded that most precious choice.
Saint Peter and Saint Paul expressed such notions:
As baptism is an earthly ordinance performed with physical water and physical bodies we believe it must be done vicariously for those who no longer remain in the physical realm. Vicarious performance is clearly acceptable doctrine, for Christ himself suffered vicariously for the sins of each of us. Is it such a stretch to think that He might call upon us to stand in vicariously for those, who like all of us, are unable to fully redeem ourselves from the Fall of our original parents in the Garden of Eden? He suffered and died for our sins, but He expects us to acknowledge that gift through Faith, Repentance and Baptism. His sacrifice can only be called Infinite if it applies to every one of us.
It may be unusual doctrine, but I have far less trouble accepting it than I do the doctrine that whole populations of people are condemned as a mere condition of the circumstances, time or place of their birth.
As for you, Eli Wiesel, who are vicariously offended on behalf of Simon Wiesenthal and his parents, let me tell you of our reaction to Don and Sue's effort to save our daughter. We shed tears of joy that we had friends who held such abiding love for us and our little baby girl. We embraced them and rejoiced at their concern and divine intent. They had done no harm. When our daughter was eight she was baptized again according to our own understanding of God's plan for his children. Where was the offence? I think God smiled on all of us. Besides, if it turns out Don and Sue were right and we were wrong, our little girl is in pretty good shape, don't you think? In every such situation, someone is right and someone is wrong, unless we tolerantly choose to be right together. If the Jews are right, then what the Mormons have done is just so much foolishness. If the Mormon's are right Simon might just be calling you a Nincompoop right about now. How about a little tolerance for the un-malicious intent of those who see things a bit differently. In doing so I think God might just smile on all of us.
Note: As The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, in a gesture of goodwill, agreed in 1995 to cease the practice of Baptism for the Dead in behalf of Holocaust victims, and as I sustain that expression of acknowledgement and sensitivity to the feelings of the Jewish people; I am pleased that the bonehead who violated that agreement has been censured by the Church and personally apologize for the breach in trust that it represents.
Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. (John 3:5)Infant baptism is a topic for another day. Suffice it to say that we believe that children have no need of baptism as they are innocent and don't require Atonement from the effects of the Fall.
We explained this to Don and Sue, but naturally, they had serious doubts. When the baby was about three weeks old. Our good neighbors offered to baby sit so we could have a quiet night out together. Loving and trusting these two sweet friends we eagerly accepted the offer. We had a great time!
Upon our return we sensed a bit of tension in the room? The baby was asleep and fine. Finally Don couldn't stand the strain and they confessed that they had taken our daughter down to the Catholic Priest and had her baptized. They explained that they loved her so much and couldn't bear the risk we were taking.
They made it very apparent how horrifying the doctrine of the necessity of Baptism actually was among most Christians. A mandate that must not be ignored. They told us horror stories of folks who had, for various reasons, delayed the Christening of their child, only to lose her to Hell for their folly. We began to realize that such is true of millions of people, who never even had the opportunity to hear of Christ, let alone, make the choice to receive the blessing of baptism in their lives. Are those huge numbers of people condemned, without hope, through no fault of their own? We felt we knew better. We knew that God had provided a way through which those whose lives were not touched by the message of Salvation might also be afforded that most precious choice.
Saint Peter and Saint Paul expressed such notions:
Else what shall they do which are baptized for the dead, if the dead rise not at all? why are they then baptized for the dead? (1 Corinthians 15:29)
For for this cause was the gospel preached also to them that are dead, that they might be judged according to men in the flesh, but live according to God in the spirit. (1 Peter 4:6)
For Christ also hath once suffered for sins, the just for the unjust, that he might bring us to God, being put to death in the flesh, but quickened by the Spirit:We believe that people who die without baptism and the knowledge of the Gospel of Christ will be given the opportunity to accept or reject that message so they may be judged as fairly as those who did have such blessings in mortality. How could we call God just or no respecter of persons if those who were given no chance to accept him were summarily condemned through no fault of their own.
By which also he went and preached unto the spirits in prison;
Which sometime were disobedient, when once the longsuffering of God waited in the days of Noah, while the ark was a preparing, wherein few, that is, eight souls were saved by water. (1 Peter 3:18-20)
As baptism is an earthly ordinance performed with physical water and physical bodies we believe it must be done vicariously for those who no longer remain in the physical realm. Vicarious performance is clearly acceptable doctrine, for Christ himself suffered vicariously for the sins of each of us. Is it such a stretch to think that He might call upon us to stand in vicariously for those, who like all of us, are unable to fully redeem ourselves from the Fall of our original parents in the Garden of Eden? He suffered and died for our sins, but He expects us to acknowledge that gift through Faith, Repentance and Baptism. His sacrifice can only be called Infinite if it applies to every one of us.
It may be unusual doctrine, but I have far less trouble accepting it than I do the doctrine that whole populations of people are condemned as a mere condition of the circumstances, time or place of their birth.
As for you, Eli Wiesel, who are vicariously offended on behalf of Simon Wiesenthal and his parents, let me tell you of our reaction to Don and Sue's effort to save our daughter. We shed tears of joy that we had friends who held such abiding love for us and our little baby girl. We embraced them and rejoiced at their concern and divine intent. They had done no harm. When our daughter was eight she was baptized again according to our own understanding of God's plan for his children. Where was the offence? I think God smiled on all of us. Besides, if it turns out Don and Sue were right and we were wrong, our little girl is in pretty good shape, don't you think? In every such situation, someone is right and someone is wrong, unless we tolerantly choose to be right together. If the Jews are right, then what the Mormons have done is just so much foolishness. If the Mormon's are right Simon might just be calling you a Nincompoop right about now. How about a little tolerance for the un-malicious intent of those who see things a bit differently. In doing so I think God might just smile on all of us.
Note: As The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, in a gesture of goodwill, agreed in 1995 to cease the practice of Baptism for the Dead in behalf of Holocaust victims, and as I sustain that expression of acknowledgement and sensitivity to the feelings of the Jewish people; I am pleased that the bonehead who violated that agreement has been censured by the Church and personally apologize for the breach in trust that it represents.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Perfectionism
Too often, in my quest for perfection, I lose sight of reality. I lose sight of the very real fact that mortality is neither designed, nor meant for perfection. Life is most certainly a learning, growing process. One that has improvement as it's objective, but, for me, at least, the failure to measure up to some real or imagined standard has been quite incapacitating. My quest for perfection, quite often, overwhelms and then shuts me down. How can that be what God had in mind?
As you can see, I'm exploring my own weakness here. Not pointing fingers.
I think I understand the problem - in my head, but making that knowledge part of my ongoing behavior is a real struggle.
I understand that:
I understand that as Moroni implies in that scripture, growing strong and overcoming that weakness is intended as a principal part of the process.
So, I suppose that what incapacitates me in my quest for perfection is my lack of humility. I suspect, however, that there is another factor. I think I have an unhealthy fear of making mistakes. Partially born of impatience, but mostly born of pride; I don't want to appear anything less than perfect. I want to get it right - right now!
When I was a boy my sisters took piano lessons. I would flee the house when they practiced. I couldn't bear to hear the same old songs and sour notes over and over again. Later, when I had daughters of my own, I loved hearing them practice. The sour notes didn't bother me for I knew they were a necessary part of the growth process. No one becomes a great pianist without making sour notes. And even when they master a piece and no longer make mistakes, the instructor advances them to a more difficult piece and the sour notes begin again. I think the Savior feels the same way about my life. Sure I'm going to make mistakes, they are a requirement of growth. My tendency, though, is to project my former reaction onto Him rather than my latter. Clearly that doesn't make sense.
Recently, I watched a video which took my piano lessons metaphor to a whole new level. In it Brother Brad Wilcox pointed out the power of the Atonement in the process. He explained that a mother pays for the piano lessons. A debt that cannot really be repaid. In doing so she enables her child to learn and grow at the keyboard. The child can only take advantage of the gift if she practices and actually takes the lessons. Likewise, Jesus paid for our opportunity to learn and grow and eventually become perfect. We cannot repay Him, we can only do our best to take full advantage of this great Gift.
So, here we are to my problem. I am so intent on being perfect, so impatient with the process and so pridefully embarrassed by my "sour notes" that I tend to abandon the key board of life and do nothing. Certainly, that is not what God had in mind. It becomes very apparent now, why pride is such an enormous problem. Clearly the difference between perfection and perfectionism is pride. For me the greatest promise, then, is:
In this context humility means joyfully sitting at the keyboard of life and playing my heart out - mistakes and all! Joyfully taking full advantage of the price Jesus paid that I might do so. Quite often even playing a duet with Him!
Robert Fulghum once reported a visit to a Kindergarten Class in which everyone thought of himself as a singer, dancer, athlete, artist and scholar. He then visited a College Class in which no one felt inclined to make such claims. Was pride the difference? Had fear of humiliation kept them from humility? Is this what is meant by the admonition to become as a little child?
Leonard Cohen wrote a song whose chorus inspires me:
As you can see, I'm exploring my own weakness here. Not pointing fingers.
I think I understand the problem - in my head, but making that knowledge part of my ongoing behavior is a real struggle.
I understand that:
.... if men come unto me (God) I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.God intended for us to be imperfect beings with weakness. Mortality with its imperfection is a gift. It is God who does the strengthening.
(Ether 12:27)
I understand that as Moroni implies in that scripture, growing strong and overcoming that weakness is intended as a principal part of the process.
Therefore I would that ye should be perfect even as I, or your Father who is in heaven is perfect.I even think I get that too often I put the cart before the horse in that, acknowledging the gap between my current ability and my lofty goal of perfection; I strive to strengthen myself rather than seeking to humble myself as Moroni admonished. He knew something that I tend overlook; the fact that long before I can be perfect in and of myself, I must be perfected in Christ. Perfection can be achieved in no other way.
(3 Nephi 12:48)
Yea, come unto Christ, and be perfected in him, and deny yourselves of all ungodliness; and if ye shall deny yourselves of all ungodliness, and love God with all your might, mind and strength, then is his grace sufficient for you, that by his grace ye may be perfect in Christ; and if by the grace of God ye are perfect in Christ, ye can in nowise deny the power of God.
And again, if ye by the grace of God are perfect in Christ, and deny not his power, then are ye sanctified in Christ by the grace of God, through the shedding of the blood of Christ, which is in the covenant of the Father unto the remission of your sins, that ye become holy, without spot.Clearly I must, through humility and through Grace, be first perfected in Christ, as provided by the Infinite Atonement, before I can ever hope for the power to actually live perfectly. Perfection is all about Jesus, and the ability to live perfectly comes only in and through Him; if I choose to allow that most wonderful process to take place. Seeking to perfect myself in any other way is utterly doomed to failure.
(Moroni 10:32, 33)
So, I suppose that what incapacitates me in my quest for perfection is my lack of humility. I suspect, however, that there is another factor. I think I have an unhealthy fear of making mistakes. Partially born of impatience, but mostly born of pride; I don't want to appear anything less than perfect. I want to get it right - right now!
When I was a boy my sisters took piano lessons. I would flee the house when they practiced. I couldn't bear to hear the same old songs and sour notes over and over again. Later, when I had daughters of my own, I loved hearing them practice. The sour notes didn't bother me for I knew they were a necessary part of the growth process. No one becomes a great pianist without making sour notes. And even when they master a piece and no longer make mistakes, the instructor advances them to a more difficult piece and the sour notes begin again. I think the Savior feels the same way about my life. Sure I'm going to make mistakes, they are a requirement of growth. My tendency, though, is to project my former reaction onto Him rather than my latter. Clearly that doesn't make sense.
Recently, I watched a video which took my piano lessons metaphor to a whole new level. In it Brother Brad Wilcox pointed out the power of the Atonement in the process. He explained that a mother pays for the piano lessons. A debt that cannot really be repaid. In doing so she enables her child to learn and grow at the keyboard. The child can only take advantage of the gift if she practices and actually takes the lessons. Likewise, Jesus paid for our opportunity to learn and grow and eventually become perfect. We cannot repay Him, we can only do our best to take full advantage of this great Gift.
So, here we are to my problem. I am so intent on being perfect, so impatient with the process and so pridefully embarrassed by my "sour notes" that I tend to abandon the key board of life and do nothing. Certainly, that is not what God had in mind. It becomes very apparent now, why pride is such an enormous problem. Clearly the difference between perfection and perfectionism is pride. For me the greatest promise, then, is:
28 And inasmuch as they were humble they might be made strong, and blessed from on high, and receive knowledge from time to time. (Doctrine and Covenants 1:28)Wow! Here is the great advantage that comes of journaling (examining a problem on paper) - a new discovery!
In this context humility means joyfully sitting at the keyboard of life and playing my heart out - mistakes and all! Joyfully taking full advantage of the price Jesus paid that I might do so. Quite often even playing a duet with Him!
Robert Fulghum once reported a visit to a Kindergarten Class in which everyone thought of himself as a singer, dancer, athlete, artist and scholar. He then visited a College Class in which no one felt inclined to make such claims. Was pride the difference? Had fear of humiliation kept them from humility? Is this what is meant by the admonition to become as a little child?
Leonard Cohen wrote a song whose chorus inspires me:
Ring the bells that still can ringI want to ring my bells! I hope you'll overlook my mistakes and I want to do the same for you. There isn't time to shut down and tremble for fear of imperfection or we'll just be shutting out the light. And, we'll hardly progress toward that perfect state we seek.
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Book Re-Review - Still Life by Louise Penny
Still Life is about how we tend to stagnate and then calcify in our habits and circumstances. About how we get ourselves into traps and how we have difficulty escaping them. It is about the lies we tell ourselves in order to continue in our self-deception. And it is about how utterly emancipating honesty can be in our relationship with ourselves and others.
I didn't discover Louise's talent for teaching me of my own vulnerabilities until the last few of her series. I wondered if the gift was embedded in the earlier ones as well and was actually surprised to revisit her first and discover and then plumb it's profound depths.
I remember the first time I read this I had a sense that the author knew me. It was comforting to sit with her work. As I read further into her work, I felt more and more that, "Here is a writer who gets me!" It wasn't until I read this one again that I realized that her flawed characters were a better reflection of my own character, than her protagonists were. I like the mix, for I dearly long to be like the healthy ones and see, in her examination of all their hearts that, I can move from one state to the other.
I have a shelf full of self-help books, which I think I'll toss. Louise Penny has become my own personal therapist. And while that my sound miserable (sort of like going to the Dentist) it is not! It is a joyous, enlightening, thrilling ride! Reading this book has been like going over the spillway after drifting stagnantly on the calm lake, way too long. How she does this in a cozy mystery is beyond me, but that too is a talent I long to imitate. There is nothing so powerful as a story. What a story this is!
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